Interieur Rien

I'm not dead...

2006-04-10T01:13:00.000-04:00

To your amazement. I've been moving into a new appartment so thats one of the reasons why I haven't been keeping in contact, lame I know. So lars yes I know I need to call you, I'll do it tomorrow probably. I'm off on mondays and tuesdays. Ben and Sam if you even read this thing how the hell are you and give me a call sometime although I know the same can be said of me... Anyways, I'll get in touch with you guys here eventually but in the meantime just wanted to post and let everyone know that I'm not dead...at least not yet.

Caffeine and Nicotine...

2006-03-24T22:40:00.000-05:00

So I've been living off a diet of black coffee and cigarettes, I like to call it the rockstar diet...Now I just need an album.
Speaking of albums, I work with a woman who's husband comes into the store around ten o'clock to pick her up every night. Well me and this guy get talking about music and are interests and what not and it turns out that he has his own recording studio in his house. We kept talking and he mentioned that he had an album released over seas under the BMG label which he collects royalties on every month or so. The album being more of the classic rock persuasion being that he enjoys that kind of music the most. I mentioned that I had been writing some music of my own, having something like four songs actually finished and allot of unfinished work just sitting on my hard drive until I get some inspiration to finish it. So to make a long story short he's looking for someone to produce and make an album with and he wants me to come over to his recording studio and bring my stuff with me and maybe record some new stuff and have him finalize and touch it up rather than me messing with it just to hear what he can do. Maybe I won't be working at Tram-Law for the rest of my life.

As it is I've been using Adobe Audition and recording my guitar directly into my computer via the line in. Not the best way to do it for anyone who knows about sound and sound quality. What I would eventually like to do is record my guitar through the amp, sounds board and then into the computer. Allowing more control and allowing me to fine tune the aspects of my playing. Right now my music has hit a sort of stagnant place because of my limits as far as using only a guitar and drum machine. I'd like to expand my music playing into keyboard just because there are some sounds and effects that I would like to put into my music that I just can't elicit out of my guitar. Granted there are some great effects available to me through using different filters and by using a violin bow on the strings instead of using the standard heavy pick. If I had those instruments and what not available it would be much easier to make more music more full if you will, sounding sparse with just a few guitar tracks laid down and a drum machine which I'm not to fluent with right now.

If you want an idea of what my music sounds like listen to a band called Sigur Ros. A band from Iceland that plays some really kick ass ambient music. Obviously my music is definitely influenced by my favorite band Nine Inch Nails, but that's more subtle in my music. When I listen to my songs I feel that I've achieved my goal if you can't tell that I played it with a guitar, not to say that the guitar is so filtered out that you can't even grab a melody or some kind of harmonic resonance from it. But that's just it, my music is very resonant and ambient, where when your listening to it you feel the music rather than actually hear it if you will. It's kind of hard to explain but I like to filter out the highs in a song so that just a low rumbling bass is left making the highs still there slightly but they are more felt than actually heard. Kind of like when your listening to a song and you expect the next note but it's not played but it's implied none the less. I've also started experimenting with more obscure sounds as of late, inspired by the downward spiral album by NIN (Some would say Trent Reznor's greatest work, but that is a title held by pretty hate machine and the fragile in my opinion). Things like breathing and filtered talking. One really incredible sound that I've been able to get out of my guitar is the sound of just simply picking up your finger off of the fret and letting it slide down the sting slightly. By itself it's nothing but with the right effects it creates a warbling sort of feedback, sounds great.

On to the no prize, the no prize goes to (drum roll)...The customer that wants me to drop the price on one product because the product they want is sold out! Kudos to you RPS costumer (I will refer to the customer as the Redneck Piece of Shit from here on out) for having the audacity to ask me that question and then when I say no to either give me a hard time and ask for management or say something so clever like "well it doesn't hurt to ask". The very fact that you said that shows me how stupid you are, yes it does hurt to ask because if you had any fucking clue how retail worked you would shut your fucking mouth and leave. And to the customers that say I shouldn't have the display up if I'm sold out, I'm so sorry that I left that forty one inch tv up, here let me take it down so that it doesn't confuse your small mind into thinking that just because I have a display I have it in stock. Oh wait, it's called a display, not a "if I have this up I have it in the store" you fuckheads. So congratulations on your no prize piss off and die.

Area 51...

2006-03-12T23:31:00.000-05:00

Poker...

2006-03-08T01:23:00.000-05:00

It's a game that anyone can play. Easy to learn rules, fun gameplay, an all around good time...and thats therin is the problem. Every jo schmo and his grandmother is playing this game now, people who just want to play for fun. That's all fine and good, just don't come on to the money tables and play against people like me who are seriously trying to improve thier game and trying to increase their skill. I'm am sick and tired of playing you fucking idiots who will call anything down and then suck out on the river with nothing, that is not lagitamet poker, that is not how the game is played and if you want to play that way then stay on the fucking play chip tables. Tonight I had one of the worst games ever, what could have been a great night of poker quickle turned into a nightmare of calling stations and sucking out. Some would say "Well thats the price you pay when your playing for 120 dollars" I say stay the fuck home if your going to play like shit and don't know anything about the fucking game or poker theory. Example, the last hand that I played: I bet 120 preflop with KQ offsuite, everyone folds exept for one guy. Flop comes down 2-8-5, I make a continuation bet of 250, the same guy calles. The turn is a 7, I bet 250 again and agian this same schmuck calls. The river is another 7 to which I check, he goes all in having me covered by about 40 chips I call him knowing that I won't have enough chips to play with if I fold being that the blinds are 30-60. He tuns over pocket fours...POCKET FUCKING FOURS!!! What the hell is going through your mind to make you think that a pair of fours is still good when everything on the board beats you except for the two, WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU THINKING! Everything in poker theory, just basic poker knowledge tells you to get the fuck out of the way if someone is betting like that and you only have a pair of fours. So needless to say I was out of the game early and he got all of my chips. This being just one of the examples of bad poker playing that I have come in contact with. Now you could say that I shouldn't have been betting with nothing, let me explain my actions. The guy I was playing against I have played before. If he has anything he will lead out and bet, if he has ANYTHING, it doesn't matter he will bet. Knowing this and because I had gotten a read off of him earlier in the hand I decided to bet into him to see if he would fold. Maybe this is the way the game is heading and I just refuse to accept that. Granted I haven't been playing that long, but with all the theory and game time that I have put in I would like to think that I am somewhat of a decent player. I'm just tired of all the bullshit players that play for the fuck of it, just tired of it. So in closing heres to you bullshit poker player, you will go out of your way to call off all of your chips in hopes of seeing that next card, and inevitable you will suck out and win the hand. Because of your astounding persistance and persuite of bad poker theory you are now the proud winner of todays no prize...Heres to you, now go fuck yourself.

Shakira...

2006-03-03T01:15:00.000-05:00

While watching MTV Latino...

Well she's no Shakira, but oh well.

There's a whole country of Shakira's, and you don't even know it!

Cut open...

2006-02-13T16:44:00.000-05:00

And bled dry, I can't feel anymore. I don't even know what happend. I'm sorry...

Aenima...

2006-01-19T23:59:00.000-05:00

Some say the end is near.
Some say we'll see armageddon soon. I certainly hope we will. I sure could use a vacation from this

Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA The only way to fix it is to flush it all away. Any fucking time. Any fucking day. Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.

Fret for your figure and Fret for your latte and Fret for your hairpiece and Fret for your lawsuit and Fret for your prozac and Fret for your pilot and Fret for your contract and Fret for your car.

It's a Bullshit three ring circus sideshow of Freaks

Here in this hopeless fucking hole we call LA The only way to fix it is to flush it all away. Any fucking time. Any fucking day. Learn to swim, I'll see you down in Arizona bay.

Some say a comet will fall from the sky. Followed by meteor showers and tidal waves. Followed by faultlines that cannot sit still. Followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.

Some say the end is near. Some say we'll see armageddon soon. I certainly hope we will cuz I sure could use a vacation from this

Silly shit, stupid shit...

One great big festering neon distraction, I've a suggestion to keep you all occupied.

Learn to swim.

Mom's gonna fix it all soon. Mom's comin' round to put it back the way it ought to be.

Learn to swim.

Fuck L Ron Hubbard and Fuck all his clones. Fuck all those gun-toting Hip gangster wannabes.

Learn to swim.

Fuck retro anything. Fuck your tattoos. Fuck all you junkies and Fuck your short memory.

Learn to swim.

Fuck smiley glad-hands With hidden agendas. Fuck these dysfunctional, Insecure actresses.

Learn to swim.

Cuz I'm praying for rain And I'm praying for tidal waves I wanna see the ground give way. I wanna watch it all go down. Mom please flush it all away. I wanna watch it go right in and down. I wanna watch it go right in. Watch you flush it all away.

Time to bring it down again. Don't just call me pessimist. Try and read between the lines.

I can't imagine why you wouldn't Welcome any change, my friend.

I wanna see it all come down. suck it down. flush it down.

Welcome to traM-laW. Let's get things started with another no-prize. Todays prize goes to the chronic under achiever, that co-worker that despite the odds will continually not get his job done. Here's to you under achieving co-worker, here's to your undying will to not get things done. Do not be sad thinking that your laziness goes unoticed, for in your time of need I will be there...And I will undoubtidly get shafted with doing the bullshit menial work that you couldn't finish for the life of you. Enjoy your prize you putz.

Issue 30 cover art...

2006-01-12T06:23:00.000-05:00

I've been waiting for this figure for about six months now. McFarlane kept pushing back the release date because of production issues. Most likely getting spawn to hang from the rope the right way and minor details like that. But finally their releasing this in february, just in time for my birthday...hint hint.

Mcfarlane is god...

2006-01-12T06:20:00.000-05:00

Just picked up these figures, thought they were really kick ass.

YOU COCKSUCKING....

2006-01-03T23:25:00.000-05:00

Mother fuckers. You all win the no prize today. I swear to God you are all fucking redneck motherfuckers. To the department manager, you win the no prize for being completely illogical about appologizing. If you don't want to have to say your sorry then don't be a fucking tool. Seriously, don't come over to me and tell me to do something and then feel bad about it after I give you the cold shoulder, you idiot. To the customers, you idiots. You will buy anything that I put in the flyer becuase your so fucking impresionable. Next month the featured item is going to be intelligence, go buy some of that you fucking rednecks. To the lady at the fitting room, FUCK!! My God how illogical are you? Your very logic for not answering the phone call defeats you, you stupid fuck. Don't ask me to answer questions about a department that I know nothing about. Tell them to call back tomorrow and talk to someone who cares, you tool. To the Kurtmiester, dye your fucking hair a differen't color and stop smiling all the time, who the fuck do you think you are, Tom Cruise? Jesus! And hire more cashiers. Christ.

No Prize...

2005-12-25T20:42:00.000-05:00

I've been giving a lot of thought lately and I think it's time to bring back the no prize. Today's no prize goes to the costumer with his cart.

"Crash"
costumer: "Can you help me?"
Me: "..."

For those of you wondering what that crash was, it was the sound of his cart ramming me in the back of the ankle. This man had apparently been standing behind me for quite some time and needed assistance. Unfortunately I was in the middle of helping another costumer and thus was preoccupied. Now this man had been standing there for a while and somehow through using all of his deductive reasoning he had come to the conclusion that ramming me in the ankle was the most appropriate way of getting my attention. My question is how the hell do you reach the point in your mind where the most logical way of getting someone's attention is to slam your cart into them? What are you thinking at that point? "Well, I could tap him on the shoulder...Or I could say excuse me...Wait! I know! I'll stand here in silence for ten minutes and then when he doesn't notice me I'll slam my cart into his ankles, it's a sure fire plan!"

Enjoy your no prize you fuck.

Up And Running...

2005-12-24T23:50:00.000-05:00

Well I have the template all set up and it's looking alright. Not quite as streamlined as I wanted it but it does the job. I'll probably overhaul it later on, but for now I need to start making a site for my domain name, right now it's blank. Meierlink.serveftp.net, that's the actual domain name, initially I was just going to use it for the ftp server but I think I might set up a site for my music and art or just some random page about nothing.

Apache!...

2005-12-24T18:44:00.000-05:00

It's an update! Holy crap! As you can see all of my design on the blog is gone unfortunately. I was using a free image host and it craped out on me a few weeks ago. I was debating weather or not I was going to keep using this blog, that would explain the two or three months of downtime for those of you that were wondering. I've been fidling around with apache server and filezilla ftp server seting those up and geting a domain name and what not. It's been going well. The only snafu that I've hit is accesing the ftp server anonmously so that a webpage ie this blog can acces the pictures on the ftp server. The only solution that I've been able to come up with is to create a guest account and enter both the username and password into the address in the template. Now obviously this creates security issues with my server and thats what I'm trying to get around. Right now I have it set up to only allow the guest account read permission, that way if someone directly accesses the ftp they would only be able to view the files rather that actually downloading or uploading. I obviously would prefer that no one be able to access the server out side of those that I give username and pass to, but alas I haven't been able to figure out a way to do that.

2005-12-02T04:55:00.000-05:00

Thats Brighteyes for those of you who wanted to know. Great music made by a guy named Conner Oberst. Check out digital ash in a digital urn or I'm wide awake, it's morning if you get the chance.

2005-12-02T04:40:00.000-05:00

When the president talks to God
Are the conversations brief or long?
Does he ask to rape our women’s' rights
And send poor farm kids off to die?
Does God suggest an oil hike
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
Are the consonants all hard or soft?
Is he resolute all down the line?
Is every issue black or white?
Does what God say ever change his mind
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
Does he fake that drawl or merely nod?
Agree which convicts should be killed?
Where prisons should be built and filled?
Which voter fraud must be concealed
When the president talks to God?

When the president talks to God
I wonder which one plays the better cop
We should find some jobs. the ghetto's broke
No, they're lazy, George, I say we don't
Just give 'em more liquor stores and dirty coke
That's what God recommends

When the president talks to God
Do they drink near beer and go play golf
While they pick which countries to invade
Which Muslim souls still can be saved?
I guess god just calls a spade a spade
When the president talks to God

When the president talks to God
Does he ever think that maybe he's not?
That that voice is just inside his head
When he kneels next to the presidential bed
Does he ever smell his own bullshit
When the president talks to God?

I doubt it

I doubt it

2005-09-20T02:50:00.000-04:00

Hellgate: London, looks like a first person shooter but is actually an RPG. It takes place ten years after "the forces of evil" take over the world i.e. theres demons running around everywhere. The game looks totally kick ass for lack of a better term. If you go to www.hellgatelondon.com they have their E3 trailer there which is four minutes of demon ass kicking. This game will be the deciding factor in what next gen system I buy.

2005-09-15T02:08:00.000-04:00

So Square Enix decided to push back Advent children. Whatever, I'll still buy it. I really hope that it's mediocre, I hate final fantasy fanboys.

2005-07-12T13:46:00.000-04:00

On the 14th of september Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children will be released on DVD and UMD. I've been looking forwared to this for quite a while now, hopefully it will be everything it has been hyped to be like Batman was, but I'm thinking that it won't. But on the 14th I'll shell out fortytwo dollars for it. So kudos SqaureEnix, you fucked me out of fifty bucks, well done.

2005-07-04T23:39:00.000-04:00

"His blood was warm. Thick fluid running over my hands, dripping to the ground staining it red. I would feel guilt about this if I could feel anything, then maybe hatred. I hate him for this, I hate that I can not take his life again. Silly that, the thought of killing one over and over again, a soothing thought though. Goodnight my dear brother, we shall never dance again I'm affraid. Goodnight Connor."

-From the journal of Baine Sullivan

2005-07-02T03:19:00.000-04:00

"Keep running my love

for it is not far behind

it will soon take me down

it will take you as well if you let it

I am to far gone now

you must save yourself

I've let it take ahold of me

it won't be long now

Movement in the shadows

quick as lightning it strikes

It overpowers me in it's grip

death comes swiftly in it's embrace

Keep running my love

for it is not far behind

I'm forever gone now

from this realm anyways

but I'll be back for you

keep running my love"

- from the journals of Connor Sullivan

2005-07-02T02:49:00.000-04:00

Mypetskeleton.com, I've been looking for a site with this type of artwork for who knows how long. The site is really well done, from the flash to the ambiant music in the backround. I came across it most by accident while looking at some jackalope stuff online. Turns out that mypetskeleton did two of jackalopes music videos and their cd art.

I'v updated the header for my blog again. This one is here to stay for a while, I'm quite happy with it. It took me a while to find something that I thought went well, but this fits perfectly with what I'm feeling right now and despite what my love might have to say about it, I think it looks great.

Evolve Already...

2005-07-01T03:32:00.000-04:00

Depending on who you talk to we have been on this rock for either 2.5 billion years, or 2000. Either way, in all that time you would think that mankind would have evolved out of our primal state. We have made incredible leaps forward in computer technology, let alone medical and yet we still kill eachother. A company here is the US has developed a technology that puts the body into suspended animation. They have been able to revive one of the subjects back to full health with no brain damage after three hours of clinical death. Although they will be working to improve upon this they are perfectly happy with the two to three hour time period saying that it will save the lives of stabbing victims and soldiers who have been damaged in the field. Well lets see, if you people could just get past your urge to kill everything that moves and realize that your a sentient being then hey, tada! we wouldn't' need suspended animation for three hour periods. Now to completely contradict myself, if a person attacked me and or one of my loved ones their going to die. I have no love for the human race, we are a self righteous breed ruled by stupidity. We are ignorant enough to believe that it's ok for us to attack a country, but not for them to attack us. Why? Why is it ok for us to murder thousands of people but it's not ok for someone else. And don't give me your retarded self deceptive answers of "Well their malicious and intend us harm". By us dropping bombs on people, that's not malicious? We don't intend harm? Then what the fuck are we doing? Because were sure as hell not landscaping.... I give up, go fuck yourselves over. Hell, keep on killing eachother, keeps the population down. Oh, and those guys studying reanimation, their testing on dogs. Because they don't have feelings and their just primal animals.

2005-06-24T15:00:00.000-04:00

Todays no prize goes to the mom looking for a gaming system.

Mom: "Do you have that cd thing? The one where you have games on music cds, and you can put them in the VCR or DVD player or whatever."
Me: "..."

Don't ever come in my store again.

Tram-Wal...

2005-06-23T00:30:00.000-04:00

Go fuck yourself.

Bane, the homosexual Batman villian...

2005-06-15T03:50:00.000-04:00

Just finished watching the newest movie in the Batman the animated series line, it was called Batman mystery of the Batwoman. The movie starts out with the said Batwoman destroying a weapons carrier of Rupert Thorns and the Penguin, the action is decent and the animation stays true to the origanal series. Thats where the simularities stop, for the rest of the movie it seems like your watching Mucha Lucha Gigante meets the Dark Knight. The sound track sounds like something Julio iglesias would write, it's rediculous. As far plot is concerned I'll write the entire screen play here for your viewing pleasure.

Batman walks into room and spots Batwoman.

Batman:What are you doing here?
Batwoman:What are you doing here?

Sexual tension ensues

There you go, the whole movie. Don't get me wrong, I'm a fan of love stories and this one wasn't that bad they just played on the tension too much. But hang on, just when your about to fall alseep they work a new baddie into the script, and who should it be, it's BANE! I know what your thinking, "OH MY GOD! BANE IS THE R0x0rs! HE DEFEATED BATMAN!!" and you would be right, just not in this movie. Bane has his meating with the penguin where he acts completely badass and shoves the other baddies around making you think that he's going to kick some major night rodent ass. But alas, Bane spends most of the movie dicking around talking about how bad he is and blah blah blah. I found myself yelling at the tv "Get your hand out of your pants and fuck up the batman!!!!". Again the clever writers at WB throw you a curve ball, just about the time your thinking that batwoman is Bane, they give you the Batman vs. Bane fight. Bane gives Batman the one two to the rib cage breaking them in half, thats right Bane breaks all his ribs, it was fucking awesome. And just when you think it couldn't get any better...actually that was the best part, Bane dies, Batman survives, theres no Azrael and the WB is sitting in the corner creaming themselves over all the money they just made off of stupid fans like me.

2005-06-14T02:06:00.000-04:00

Todays no prize goes to the old man rumeging through the five fifty movie bin.

Oldman after pulling out a movie: "Is this five fifty?"
Me: "Why yes it is. Congratulations, you win the no prize!"

Using his amazing intelect and incredible reading skills, he managed to figure out that a movie from the five fifty bin was actually five fifty!! Amazing!

2005-06-13T02:21:00.000-04:00

I tripped and updated the blog again. I'm a lazy fuck and stole someone elses template. It wasn't being used so I don't feel bad. The fact that I don't know nearly enough code to do what I wanted has nothing to do it.

2005-06-13T00:25:00.000-04:00

Get ready, set, GO! And off goes the most uninteresting post ever on Interieur Rien. Listen, it's not that I don't care about you, I just don't feel the need to post. I know that's incredibly selfish of me, but hey, it's my blog. In the immortal words of Max the cat "I do what I want". For those of you who absolutely must have some news of my life or you'll die, I guess I could talk about my weekend. I went to a family reunion. I don't think that I should have to say anymore for you to understand how my weekend went, but just in case I will put it into perspective for you. I hate fucking everybody.

Went over to Evans tonight. James, him and I played more culdcept. It's a card game on ps2 much like magic, only wildly biased in James favor. I swear to god, the console hates Evan and me, but it would bone James if it got the chance. Maybe it's just that he's a better player, but I doubt it. Other than that, I'm still working at wal-mart losing my soul a little bit more everyday. But they pay well, and is that not all that matters?

Oh, one last thing. I was just thinking about the infamous Stan Lee. So I thought in his honor I would hand out a "No Prize" (If you don't know what that is, pick up a fucking comic), so here goes.

Wal-Mart Customer: "Wow, your tall!"
Me: "congratulations! You've just won the no prize!"

So there you have it Wal-Mart customer, your the no prize winner this week. Congratulations on you amazing deductive skills and excellent manners. Go fuck yourself. Remember to watch out for more no prizes all this week!!

2005-06-02T21:33:00.000-04:00

For the sake of being contraversial and an asshole.

I support stemcell research, as long as it doesn't interfere with my primary support, the death of babies.

Flame on.

2005-05-08T03:32:00.000-04:00

Three words, Evil Dead Remake. It's going to be fucking awesome. Bruce Cambel and Sam Riami are going to do it. They said that it will have a differen't cast and that the story is going to be updated. They are also talking about doing evil dead four, but that isn't going to happen untill all the Sam is done with the spider-man series.

2005-05-08T03:21:00.000-04:00

Thats not the complete story, for those of you who wanted a decent ending. I've got about five pages of stuff typed out for this perticular story path and I didn't want to bombard my blog with all that. So this is the first half I'd say of this branch of the story. I haven't started work on the second branch because I want to give that one more time to develop before I commit to anything.

Once in a Lifetime

2005-05-08T03:11:00.000-04:00

A story by Jordan Jones

"Shit!" Josh swore under his breath as a car sped past, sending a puddle into his face extinguishing his cigarette. "That was my last one" he said frustrated "Now I've got nothing left but my health and this box". Josh got up from the curb side seat and began walking downtown, contemplating his former life as a chosen. Thinking about the events that led him here, led him into hell. "They don't tolerate failure" Josh said to himself. The accident had left him crippled in the sight of the chosen, They stripped him of his title and relinquished him to the mortal world, leaving him a broken man. A man without his family, a man without a reason to live.

***

It had the beginnings of a magnificent day. Josh woke up to the smell of his wife, Emily cooking breakfast and the sounds of his two children, Josh Jr. and Vegas playing in the house. Josh slowly rose out of bed, throwing the bed sheets onto the floor. He went down stairs into the kitchen and kissed his wife on the forehead, Josh and Vegas ran in and sat at the table yelling for food to be placed in front of them. He tussled Josh's hair and gave Vegas a kiss before walking outside to get the paper. Nothing...

"...Felt like I got hit from behind" Josh thought to himself. As he slowly came to consciousness, opening his eye's, only to see a scared face smiling into his. "How ya doin Joshie boy?" the man coughed out "Thought you had put me away for good didn't ya?". Caan, Frankie Caan, arrested for the murder of five children in D.C. The head Chosen at the scene had been Josh Douglas. Caan had been put into a harness, a contraption used by the chosen on certain more unsavory characters such as Caan. It controls all aspects of their physical movement as well as their speech and thought patterns. "There's no way he should have gotten away!" Josh's head was screaming, the wound was gushing blood. "I gots me friends in high places Joshie, friends in high places" Caan said smugly, slurring his words. "Now if ya don't mind I'd like to get streight down to business". Josh's head reeled "Can't think straight, losing to much blood. I've got to warn Emily". "I know what your thinkin Joshie, how you'd like to get back into that there house of yours and warn your family. You know that wife of your is awfuly pretty". Caan smiled, Josh knew that smile it was the same one Caan had given him on the night he was captured. "I've got to warn Emily...too late!" Josh heard the sound of the front door opening, a scream, footsteps running away, more yelling. CRACK! Josh sunk into darkness as the business end of a led pipe connected with his skull.

***

"This is bullshit, I've got no money left, no food, just that lousy box" Josh continued to walk down the street looking for spare change or anything else that might be useful lying on the side of the road. "This place is falling apart" Josh thought to himself. Ever since the take over, DC had been falling apart. In actuality the city had been falling apart for years, in the highest ranks of government. Josh walked by a wall of TV's that were playing the old presidential campaign speeches "We hafta wip this country into shape" the last president told the crowd, using his experiences as a cattle rancher in Texas as humor in his speeches. "Everyone had liked him...until he killed himself" Josh thought "There probably won't ever be another election, the chosen have the power now". The president had apparently made a deal with sect before killing himself, most people thought that he couldn't face the responsibility for his actions so he killed himself, some thought that the sect possessed his body and then killed him. "Either way" Josh thought "The worlds going to shit...Either way".

***

Josh slowly came to, opening his eye's he saw the pool of his own blood that had amased around his body. Raising himself from the ground he slowly walked towards his house. Josh held on to the door knob, afraid to open it. He slowly turned the knob and walked into the kitchen. On the floor written in blood were the words "Nighty Night" Caans calling card. Josh stomach went sick, "where's Emily and the kids?" he thought to himself "Maybe they made it outside, to safety". He knew it wasn't true, but for right now, until he found the bodies, it had to be.

2005-05-07T11:38:00.000-04:00

The story completely changed. I think I'm going to try and pull the summation from the other story into this one, make it have multiple parts. The first part is about a guy who loses his family to a serial killer, but hey I let the guy live ::sarcastic smile::.

2005-05-05T03:58:00.000-04:00

I came up with another idea for a story the other night. I haven't started writing it yet, as I'm still coming up with ideas and I want to give the idea room to grow. A summation of what it will be about: The one time you decide to do something that is against everything you believe, just so that you can get ahead, and it gos horribly wrong.

It will be something like that. Of course with my usual morbid fasination with death and people getting fucked over. So for those of you wondering, no this will not be a happy story, if anyone shows interest I might let the main charactor live.

2005-05-04T03:17:00.000-04:00

The new NIN album [With_Teeth] is out. Go out and buy it, or at least listen to some of it here. It's really good, in my opinion.

2005-04-30T02:54:00.000-04:00

I believe I can see the future
As I repeat the same routine
I think I used to have a purpose
But then again
That might have been a dream
I think I used to have a voice
Now i never make a sound
I just do what I've been told
I really don't want them to come around again

Oh, no

Everyday is exactly the same
Everyday is exactly the same
There is no love here and there is no pain
Everyday is exactly the same

I can feel thier eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes I think I'm happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can't remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end

I'm writing on a little piece of paper
I'm hoping someday you might find
I'll hide it behind something
They won't look behind
I am still inside here
A little bit comes bleeding through
I wish this could have been any other way
But I just don't know- I don't know what else I can do!

Consider yourself updated.

2005-04-18T04:09:00.000-04:00

I've been thinking that the old blog needs a total revamp. A few weeks ago some of you will remember that I did a half assed change, and switched banners and blog name. This time around though, I'm thinking of changing color, banner, font. I'm getting sick of looking at black and red with Courier New. It seems drab to me now.

Wal-Mart is the ever growing epicenter of hypocrisy and bureaucracy. "We don't sell unedited CDs, but we will sell you Helter Skelter", which for those of you not in the know is the Charlie Manson biography. As far as the games section of electronics, well that's another story completely. Ubisoft released a fairly mediocre game called Cold Fear. A survival horror, much in the fashion of Resident Evil 4. Well, it turns out that the PC version of this particular game won't work. Upon finding this out almost every conceivable retailer that sold the game took it off the shelves and or pennied it off. The wonder mart of wals on the other hand knowing nothing of the problem left it on the shelves. Now me being the consciousness. retailer that I am, went over to the PC aisle and pulled the game off the shelf and marked it as being recalled. So what does my department do, did they send the three copies back to ubisoft? Did they penny off the game? No, they shoved it in the back with the rest of our overstock and left it there. So, the game that was recalled is now sitting in our cage, our cage is emptied out every day and the games that aren't on the shelf are put out, thus Cold Fear is going to be traveling from our cage, to our shelves, back into my hands, and into the cage again until some unlucky bastards buy all the copies we have before I can pull them again. And then you know what will happen, were going to get three angry and irate costumers back into the store to return a game, and the electronics department is going to get called and costumer service is going to ask why we were selling a broken game, and I'm going to get that phone call and I'm going to tell them that we didn't know so I don't lose my job.

2005-04-12T11:19:00.000-04:00

God's handheld would be AWESOME!

2005-04-09T21:00:00.000-04:00

Well...Where to start? I guess we'll just get the strong worded comments out of the way.

To: The self-important people

If one more of you people ask me how tall I am or say "Wow, your tall" one more time, I'm not going to be liable for my actions. Are you really that involved with yourself that the only thing you can think of to say to me is "you tall". No shit Sherlock. Pull your head out of your ass for five seconds and act like a normal human being...fuck that, I hate the human race, um... Act like small animal, everyone loves small animals.

To: The Rednecks

LEAVE ME ALONE! I don't give a flying fuck if your just getting your phone hooked up for the first time in twenty years. I don't fucking care if you just got a computer and you want to hook up a network. Grow half a braincell, stop fucking your cows and go out for an interview for a job that involves more that unloading boxes from a truck.

To: The HotTopic generation

I dress in black, I am a Goth. You, however, are not. Marilyn Manson is a self-centered blowhard and your wrists look like your cat got angry with you. Grow the fuck up, get over yourself, stop cutting yourself, and please for the love of god stop thinking that because your dressed in black, and I'm dressed in black, that we have something in common. I'm better than you, I'm more intelligent that you, and I have a lot more fucking fashion sense than you. Black parachute pants with neon orange thread were never cool.

To: The "Christians"

Stop fucking calling yourself that, no one believes you. All they see is some gestapo asshole who wants to take away everyone's freedom of speech. If you want to buy a Josh Groban CD, then buy the god damned CD. Don't talk to me for half a fucking hour about how you thought he was a Christian but since only one of his songs even resembles anything like that you don't want it anymore. Stop trying to make everything that's popular have a godly meaning. Evanescance was never Christian, Creed was never Christian, Chavelle was never Christian, and men have 24 fucking ribs, count em yourself.

To: Me

...Take a deep breath...Now picture your anger as a red balloon floating into the clouds...

From: Your Mother

2005-04-07T03:41:00.000-04:00

"I won't ever be happy again"

Well morning came
And it dressed the sky
In a lovely yellow gown
Now the shops they are
All opening
In that narrow hallway of downtown
Filled with people who
Are shopping for
Their lovers and their friends
Saying they won't ever be lonely again
Well a forest fenced
becomes backyards
Like songs are born from sound
And the apple fell
And it taught us all
We are chained here to the ground
So, I mean, here we go
But there ain't no escape
No, these streets they're just dead ends
So I won't ever be happy again
Well, it seems you too
See a painful blue
When you stare into the sky
You'd never understand
The motion of a hand waving you goodbye
"Bye bye"
But as the story goes
or it is often told
A new day will arise
And all the dance halls will
Be full of skeletons
That are coming back to life
And on a grassy hill
the lion will
lay down with the lamb
And I won't ever be lonely again
No, no, no, no, no
But until that time
I think I had better find
some disbelief to suspend
Cause I don't want to feel like this again

-Brighteyes

Disclaimer: I'm not depressed, I just like the song. So stop flipping out.

2005-03-29T01:42:00.000-05:00

Yet another fan on a message board had this to say about "Miracle Drug:"
I think that Bono turns pop culture upside down with the line "I've had enough of romantic love."
Wow, how profound. Look out pop-culture! Bono has had enough of "romantic love." Here comes Bono and his idiotic fans to make ambiguous jabs at you.

-Maddox

2005-03-29T01:19:00.000-05:00

I want to pwn a slice can!

2005-03-26T01:40:00.000-05:00

Added a link to David Duchovny's blog. Apparently he's on the directing end of movies now. Check it out, it's an interesting read.

On a semi-random note, there's talk about Chris Carter making a second X-Files movie, I'm excited about it.

2005-03-26T01:28:00.000-05:00

"The Hand That Feeds"

you're keeping in step
in the line
got your chin held high and you feel just fine
because you do
what you're told
but inside your heart it is black and it's hollow and it's cold

just how deep do you believe?
will you bite the hand that feeds?
will you chew until it bleeds?
can you get up off your knees?
are you brave enough to see?
do you want to change it?

what if this whole crusade's
a charade
and behind it all there's a price to be paid
for the blood
on which we dine
justified in the name of the holy and the divine

just how deep do you believe?
will you bite the hand that feeds?
will you chew until it bleeds?
can you get up off your knees?
are you brave enough to see?
do you want to change it?

so naive
I keep holding on to what I want to believe
I can see
but I keep holding on and on and on and on

will you bite the hand that feeds you?
will you stay down on your knees?

-NIN

2005-03-14T15:03:00.000-05:00

Nine Inch Nails
Our Lady Peace
No Doubt

2005-03-08T17:36:00.000-05:00

Ever since his conception all James could think about was being popular. Having people worship the ground he walked on. Unfortunately nothing had ever come easily for James. Everything he ever tried his hand at always seemed to come out less than perfect, “I'm perfect so why shouldn't my creations be?” thought James. Why should he settle for something mediocre, when he could have something magnificent. “Alas” thought James as he hung his head in self pity, “I will never be popular, I will never have a group of followers”. What he didn't realize, was that everything was going to change. That very night would be his becoming.

Later on that night, as James lay in bed; thinking of all the things he could be, all the things he could do if only given a chance. He remembered the story of the angel that his friend had told him. “Trust me man, use this powder and that mythical angel you've been wanting to see will be waiting for you, it'll be awesome”. “Could it really be that easy” James thought aloud. Reaching under his bed, James took the clear plastic baggy in his hands. Slowly opening it up, he reached in for a pinch...”Wake up James”. All he could hear was the sound of hysterical laughing. His vision still blurry he couldn't quite make out what the bright pink form was in front of him. “It's me, your angel”, the sound seemed to be coming from the cloud of pink in front of him. Slowly his vision came back to him, revealing an angel clad in hot pink and red. “What the hell are you? How did you get in here?” James said nervously. “Don't you remember? You called me here, I'm your angel”. More hysterical laughing, James couldn't help but notice that she had said “angel” in a very cynical tone. “So what is that you want from me, I haven't got all night” putting a hand on her hip impatiently. “I want to be on of them” James said pointing to the pictures on his wall “I want to be...” the angel quickly put her hands over his mouth “Don't say it! You'll jinx the whole thing. As for what you want, done, your there”.

Pounding, pounding headache...and someone's at the door. James slowly got out of bed, stumbling into his night stand, spilling the rest of his magical powder onto the carpet. “I'm coming! Hold on!” James yelled as he made his way to the front door. Peering through the eye hole, he could make out the distorted image of a postal worker. “What do you want?” James yelled through the door, “I have a letter for a James Patterson here, someone has to sign for it”. James opened the door, grabbing the letter and pen from the man, “Who the hell is it from? And why are you here so early?” James said irritably. “I don't have a clue, it's your mail, and it's four in the afternoon”. James looked up in surprise, throwing the pen back at the postal worker James ran back inside and checked the clock on his night stand, sure enough, it was four o'clock. Beep...Beep...Beep...James leaned over to the other side of his bed and picked up his cell phone. “I've had just about enough of this! Your through Patterson, come in tomorrow and pick up your belongings!” Clack!...”My morning shift...I completely forgot about it” thought James, throwing his cell phone at the wall. Just as it hit he realized his mistake as it shattered into pieces.

James sat at his table over a bowl of cereal, the letter sitting beside it. Where the return address should have been it read “Stan Diablo”. James opened the letter, peering inside the envelope. From what he could see of it still inside it looked like a contract. James pulled the paper out and began reading it, “This is a record contract!” James thought in excitement. Looking franticly over the contract he found an address. James grabbed his keys and ran out to his car. “This is what I've been waiting for” James thought as he peeled out of his driveway.

It was a brick building, not a sky-scraper as it was only three stories high. James walked down the concrete foot path that led to the front door, pulling the door handle it opened into a large foyer. In the middle was a wooden desk with a middle aged woman sitting behind it. “James Patterson?” she asked, “Mr. Diablo is waiting for you in his office, it's right between those doors right over there” she said pointing at two large oak double doors. James nodded to the woman and walked towards the office. Inside it was very bright, it seemed as though there were lights everywhere in the mans office. As James approached the desk at the far end of the room, a tall slim man stood up from behind it with his hand outstretched. “It's good to finally meet you” said the man while shaking hands. “Sit down, sit down. We have much to talk about you and I” a large smile appeared on his face. “I'm Stan Diablo if you haven't deducted that yet, but you can call me Diablo. Odd I know, calling someone by their last name, but I do so love the name Diablo and Stan just seems to be missing something, don't you think?”. Diablo tilted back and forth in his chair like a little boy, “Come let us talk about this contract, you brought it with you correct?”. “Uh, yeah” was all James could say. “Well, lets have a look at it” said Diablo, “Sure, let me grab it” James said as he fumbled with it trying to get it out of his inside coat pocket. “I had a couple of questions about it, if that's alright” he said nervously. “that's perfect, questions are always welcome here” said Diablo joyously. “Um, great. I read here that this is a music contract for six years, is that right?” asked James. “that's correct Mr. Patterson, six years of touring with your own band, playing in front of adoring fans. Of course there's some copyright and licensing issues, but you shouldn't worry about that” smiling Diablo continued “Of course at the end of that six year period you will have a chance at signing on again for another period”. “How many times am I allowed to sign up?”James asked excitedly “Three” said Diablo “Now if you'll just sign your name there, we will set you up with your fist concert and a band”. James looked down at the contract, thinking about how incredible this was going to be, “I just had a couple of more questions” James said picking up the pen. “Why don't you just sign there, there's plenty of time for questions later” Diablo said impatiently. “that's odd” James thought as he signed his name, “The ink is red”.

“This is it! This is it!”, James was backstage at his first concert. “You go on in five!” said a stage hand. Five minutes seemed like an eternity, James nervously figited with his guitar. “Are you guys ready for this?!” James asked his band “This is going to rock!”....”Your on!” yelled the stage hand again. James and his band ran out onto the stage and immediately drove into their first song. As he looked out over the crowd, James noticed that it consisted of younger kids, sixteen to eighteen. “Whatever” James thought to himself, this is what I've always wanted. As they began their third song, James felt empty, he wasn't feeling the music anymore. “I just need to get into it more” he thought. At the apex of his song, James threw down his guitar and ran for the edge of the stage. “This is what they do at their concerts” he thought “This should get me in the mood”. James launched himself from the stage, as his body flew through the air towards his adoring crowd James thought to himself “I've made it, this is it...I'm one of the beautiful ones”.

“And now in entertainment, here's Stacy Walker” the sound blasted from the television. “Thanks Tom, today a tragic accident took the life of a rockstar. James Patterson, the lead singer of the Clanks died after breaking his neck in a stage diving incident. My sources at the concert say that Patterson had launched himself from the stage expecting to be caught by the people in the crowd, unfortunately there was no one there to catch him, as they all moved away causing Patterson to land on the concrete floor...”. “that's unfortunate” thought Betty as she pressed the comlink button on her desk “Mr. Diablo, turn on the TV, another one of your sign on's has died. It's really sad.”

2005-02-26T19:48:00.000-05:00

I am so tired of these pretentious bastards that post on forums. The ones that think their God and all of us lowly humans need to listen to their advice, their opinions because that's obviously why we came to the forum in the first place. Could it be that we just wanted to get informed on a specific topic, or that we might have want to share our humble opinion with the rest of the world? No, obviously the whole reason for our existence, the whole reason we live and breath; is to go to these forums and read the flaming comments of some jackass who thinks he's the hottest thing since the discovery of the black hole. What gets me the most, is the nerve of these morons. They actually think that their post is the best fucking post on the whole forum and that everyone should comment on it. You know the ones I'm talking about "OMG THIS IS THE r0x0r's, w00t!", or you get the cleverly disguised post "I need some help" only to be bombarded with "OH MY GOD, FUCK YOU!!" "NO, FUCK YOU, BAMBI IS THE BEST MOVIE EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" "NO, ALADDIN IS THE BEST, SO FUCK OFF!!!!!!" "WELL YOUR MOM IS THE BEST!!!" "NO YOUR MOM IS!!!!" etc.............All I have to say is IF ONE MORE OF YOU MOTHERFUCKING MORONS POSTS IN A LEGIT FORUM AND FUCKS IT UP AGAIN, I'M GOING TO HUNT YOU DOWN AND GUT YOU LIKE A DAMN FISH!

oh, and your m0m is teh r0x0r's.

2005-02-25T22:24:00.000-05:00

Seriously, I don't know why I try. The damned banner for my blog doesn't want to show up for some unknown reason. If someone want's to take a look at the page sorce and hit me back with a comment; let me know if you can see it or not. I'm too lazy to actually put any work into getting it to show up on your computers, so if you want to see it comment and let me know what you think is wrong.

P.S. I love my girlfriend!

2005-02-23T02:30:00.000-05:00

Donnie Darko
Garden State
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind

Ever So Faithfully Updated...

2005-02-18T18:35:00.000-05:00

On the request of a one Brian Mahuta I'm updating my blog. Lets start things off with this; sorry to all of you who I said I would email...cough. For those of you in the dark, I'm horrible at staying in contact with anyone. It's not that I don't want to, or that I can't be bothered, I'm just lazy when it comes to email or any other kind of correspondence.

In music, I've been completely inspired today. I got quite a bit of work done on a old/new song. the song is a combination of Inside and this new thing I'm working on. As soon as I get a keyboard though...it's going to be absolutely sensational. I can't wait till I get the money.

In life, I have an interview at "Corporate Whores R' us". I don't want the job, but I don't have much of a choice. Can't complain about anything else, well other than me being a complete fuckhead the other night, but none of you know anything about that so ha! Oh, I had a birthday, one step closer to entropy and death. It's a useless age, at eighteen you can smoke (and one other thing, I think it has something to do with magazines and the internet, but I'm drawing a blank...). At twentyone you can drink...Legally. At nineteen you can...oh wait that's right, you can't do a motherfucking thing. Talk about uselessness, "I'm nineteen!! yay! Now I'm one day older" yippie fucking skippie. Those of you who like being nineteen...your going to Hell.

Speaking of Hell, Constantine comes out this Friday. It's another comic to movie translation, and yes it has neo in it. No I don't mean Keanu Reeves, I mean Neo, BECAUSE HE PLAYS THE SAME DAMN CHARACTER! Whatever happened to the great character actors like Gary Oldman, and Edward Norton.

Ahh well, I'll talk to you later kiddies. (borrowing a line from a couple of friends) Keep the glory. Stay healthy, but most importantly stay happy. Oh, and don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Jordan

Judas Priest!...

2005-02-03T01:58:00.000-05:00

Feeling completely and utterly unmotivated. I haven't touched my guitar in quite a while. I started Inside but became unstaified with it when the song went in the wrong direction. On a random note, I finally fixed the tv today. A cable got stuck in the back of it so the only thing I could do with it was watch tv. But I finally got it off tonight and plugged my dreamcast in and Kristen and I played puzzle fighter for a while. Good game by the way, even though Kristen is like the master of it and kicks my ass all the time. Finally got to see the Street Fighter Alpha movie, witch I actually enjoyed allot. One thing I'm confused on, everyone complains that "Akuma isn't Ryu's father" not once in the movie did they say that he was. They, being the charactors that pertain to this part of the plot, hint at it numorus times, but it is never said flat out that Akuma is his father. Well, I'm off for a few minutes of minless killing, don't do anything I wouldn't do.

Inside Nothing...

2005-01-28T20:46:00.000-05:00

Changed the name of the blog, changed the profile,I think it fits better.

STEP RIGHT UP!...

2005-01-28T18:40:00.000-05:00

march push
Crawl right up on your knees
Please greed feed (no time to hesitate)
I want a little bit I want a piece of it I think he’s losing it
I want to watch it come down
Don’t like the look of it don’t like the taste of it don’t like the smell of it
I want to watch it come down
All the pigs are all lined up
I give you all that you want
Take the skin and peel it back
Now doesn’t that make you feel better?
Shove it up inside surprise! lies
Stains like the blood on your teeth
Bite chew suck away the tender parts
I want to break it up I want to smash it up I want to fuck it up
I want to watch it come down
Maybe afraid of it let’s discredit it let’s pick away at it
I want to watch it come down
Now doesn’t that make you feel better?
The pigs have won tonight
Now they can all sleep soundly
And everything is all right

"Mr. Selfdestruct"...

2005-01-28T04:14:00.000-05:00

Inside is taking a completely different turn. I'm tired of the trance\pseudo industrial garbage that I've been writing. Instead of the hard edge, high energy sounds I go for, I'm ending up with a lackluster trippy dreamy sound. I've been relying to much on the abstract of the song; the parts that by themselves make nothing but without them the song would trail off into monotony. Unfortunately this makes the rest of the song suffer, instead of the chunky high energy guitars, I get tranced out psychedelic crap. I'm thinking this is because I focus to much on the abstract and I let that conduct the rest of the song. I haven't had a chance to get back to Inside yet but when I do hopefully this thought process of relying less on the abstract will create the sound I'm going for. I'll be getting a microphone for the vocals, but that's not to important yet. I think a song should be able to stand on it's own without lyrics or vocals, and then, if the vocals add to the song then great. It should not be the redeeming part of the song though.

Errr...

2005-01-18T15:51:00.000-05:00

Wanna see one of the scariest publicity stunts of all time? Go here http://www.she-is-here.com/index.html
I wouldn't suggest actually watching the tape if you scare easily though, cuz it is kind of disturbing. But just in case you all want to see it go here www.the-tape.com, read the boards after you watch the tape. I can't tell if these people actually believe this stuff or weather their just doing it for the ring 2, really interesting though.

Deviant Art...

2005-01-16T13:59:00.000-05:00

I decided to post some of my art on there. I only have two things up right now, one of htem being Forced Emotion which most of you have already seen, and then theres another one I just made this morning thats up called Interieur. So go check it out. Horsejockey.deviantart.com

Beware, the End is Near...

2005-01-16T09:13:00.000-05:00

It's all gone. No longer shall it wave in the breeze, no longer shall it be pulled back by a band of elastic. No, it shall do none of those things, for my hair is gone. Seriously though it really is, chopped like eight or nine inches off the top of my head, shaved the back. The long hair is gone folks, mothers everwhere rejoice! Kristen and I were bored the other night, se we cut and dyed our hair. I'm not a huge fan of short hair, but I do have to say that she looks really atractive, yes sir I am one lucky guy. Not to sound conceded of course but I definately look better, hell I look better than everyone, thats just how good I look with short hair, and then with the leather pants, yeah...

It's Finished!!!

2005-01-13T20:14:00.000-05:00

I don't know what to do with myself. I don't know whether I should cry, laugh, get violent. With Teeth is finished!

With Teeth is finished.
The band in rehearsing.
I can't wait to present this music to you-
on your stereo and in your town.
Happy New Year.

Trent Reznor

Their also going back on tour...Everyone go to www.nin.com right now, even if you don't like them, or you think you don't like them. Just check it out, and at least appreciate the musical genius that is Nine Inch Nails.

Oh, guess who's playing drums on the album. The one and only Dave Grohl from my other Favorite band the Foo Fighters. Absolutely fan-fucking-tastic. This is going to be the best year ever! GET EXCITED PEOPLE!

I Love America...

2005-01-13T11:20:00.000-05:00

And we wonder why other countries don't like us
http://static.thepiratebay.org/legal/

Two Years...

2005-01-13T00:24:00.000-05:00

One war,three thousand two hundred and thirty eight casualties, zero "weapons of mass destruction".

Knee Deep in the Dead...

2005-01-12T20:27:00.000-05:00

Doom, the ultraviolent (for it's time), utlra awesome fps that started brain rot in millions of your across america. I've been playing allot of old school games lately, Doom being one of them. I decided to look around the web and see what I could find for mods, levels, TC whatever would make the game last longer. In my searching I came across a Doom port called Jdoom. Well more corectly it was called Doomsday, thats the name of the engine that this Jaakko Keranen came up with and designed. In this engine there are ports for Doom, Heretic and Hexen all respectivly starting with a J as in Jdoom etc. The Doomsday engine incorperates dynamic lighting, fully 3d models (Instead of the old 2d ones), a particle system and high-res textures. Whats great about it is that anyone, you, your mom, can create new models, a new particle system, a new anything really as long as you have the know how. So needless to say I've been making some new models for it, just kind of messing around with the engine, seeing how many polys the models can have before the engine decides that it doesn't like me. Don't get me wrong this engine is no Jon Carmac Doom 3, but it does create a brand new atmosphere for doom and it definately updates a classic that was in need of it. Also for all of you out there with Doom 3, there a group of modders that are working on re-creating doom on that engine, New Doom I believe it's called. In other Doom news, I finally got down to the bottom of why Trent didn't do the sounds for Doom 3. Yes, I know I know, you don't care and your sick of hearing about this, just bear with me. So it turns out that Jon and Trent have been good friends ever since Quake (Trent did all the sound effects and music for that). Well when Jon decided that he was going to start work on this new engine he asked Trent for ideas. Whats cool about that is Trent didn't just do the early sounds for Doom 3, he actaully helped out on the engine (Trent went to college for comp sci btw). Back on track, so what happend was during development, Trent told them that he wanted a percentage of every game sold, they obviously didn't like this and so Trent left. The sad thing is because of that the sound work suffered, yes the drummer for Nine Inch Nails (Chris Vrenna) took over sound design after Trent left. But I'm sorry the sound effects for the Imps and most other demons are horrible compared to the sounds that Trent made. If you have Doom 3 see for yourself, Download the Trent Reznor sound pack and play the game with that, it definately makes the game a hell of a lot scarier (the pack changes a few of the demons and most of the gun sounds and replaces them with the respective ones that Trent created). On a side note, Id did leave one sound in the game from Trent, the BFG reload sound is him screaming.

Hoot Selling Skills...

2005-01-06T18:57:00.000-05:00

Don't ask. Not sure how much longer I'm going to be working at Hot Topic, their cutting the seasonal staff. What I find interesting is that they are hiring right now, so someone who has no experience and is completely new to the store is going to take my job?? and the managers wonder why the store is doing so poorly. On a good note, I got an amazingly hot pair of leather pants tonight, all black crome zipper, yeah their definitely hot; and as an added bonus they look good too. But enough about me, lets take an exciting trip to "Purple Oryctolagus cuniculus Land".

Once upon a time there lived a purple Oryctolagus cuniculus. Now this purple Oryctolagus cuniculus did not have many friends because of the mere fact that he was, purple. One day as Ory (Purple Oryctolagus cuniculus will now be referred to as "Ory" to save time) was sitting in his house (which just happens to be a great big red oak next to a highway) he thought "Why don't I go out and make some new friends?". So Ory got dressed (a very simple task for a purple Oryctolagus cuniculus because they only need a hat) and went out onto the highway to hop his way to town. Just then the giant red demon of speed came rushing at him (read about the giant red demon of speed here, where you can also read about his brothers The Silver Demon of Speed, The Blue demon of speed and so on and so forth), Ory quickly dodged out of the way only to be hit and killed by the demon of agriculture (read about him and his brothers here) So that boys and girls is why there are no more Purple Oryctolagus cuniculus, but don't cry Ory lived out his few minutes gazing into the sky watching some pretty winged birds circle around him.

JTHM or JTSM...

2005-01-02T17:46:00.000-05:00

Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, created by the same twisted mind that brought us Invader Zim. I just recently bought myself the directors cut of the comic, it's definitely worth a read if you ever get the chance. Sorry about not updating in a while, I think it's been like a month. Life has been busy with my apartment mate, Wayne, moving out and Kristen moving in. Everything is peachy Kean now though, getting the apartment cleaned up and organized. I haven't had the chance to work on anything really, music, modding or web design. I was thinking of re-creating the gothic castle that I built a while ago for Rune. I was going to design it again for Unreal Tournament. Music wise I've been formulating a new song in my mind over the past couple of weeks, it's going to be rougher and more abrasive than Self possessed. Oh, the script for See no Evil is still in the works, I've been thinking of more ideas, plot twists etc. for it. I'm not sure what direction I'm going to be taking it in though, the more ideas I come up with for it the more it turns into a thriller\art film and less of a horror movie. But I like thrillers and I like art films so I guess it could work. Speaking of film, everyone should go out and see Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. Yes I know this movie has been out for a little while now and I'm a little slow on the uptake, but my good friend Lars and I rented it just the other day and we both agree it is one of the best movies we have ever seen. Well you kidies go out and have fun, enjoy the new year and never ever wear womens underwear.

Bettie Ford...

2004-12-21T23:25:00.000-05:00

Is for quiters.

Oh...

2004-11-26T01:59:00.000-05:00

Another thing real quick. I added the link to Quintin Terintino's blog to mine so if your into his films check out his blog, he's a good writer and most of his stuff is quite funny. Oh and for you slightly less inteligent people who are saying right now "Jordan thats a fake", his blog was reviewed in life magazine.

Hmmmmmm...

2004-11-26T01:44:00.000-05:00

Quick update. Spent thanksgiving with my beautiful girlfriend. We decided to stay in plattsburgh because of the snow, that and I hade to be back by ten today to go to work. I bought a video card for my comp, I've been playing doom 3 non stop, I love id software. Oh and the best game ever came out finally, half life 2. It's spectacular; my roommate bought it the day it came out. Speaking of doom 3, I found the original sounds created by Trent Reznor (For those of you who don't know he's the band Nine Inch Nails). Trents sounds are far superior to those that id made. Although the old drummer for NIN did the sounds when Trent dropped out, it still pales in comparison with Trents raw talent for evoking emotion with sounds and music. Normally when one of the lesser demons come at you in the game you just run right in and blast away, but with Trents sounds for them you definately think twice about running out in the open. If you haven't heard anything by Trent check him out, he's really talented, even if you don't enjoy the music apreciate the talent involved in creating it. Aight, anyways go out and play doom and half life, maybe play some old school bungie games, like good old Oni. Their consumer whores now, so if your into those kind of games then rock on, I prefer to have a storyline and the bugs worked out of my games.

See no Evil...

2004-11-09T09:39:00.000-05:00

That’s the working title for my screenplay that I'm writing. I guess that could use an explanation, considering I've never talked about screenplays or anything like that in this blog before. Well, my friend Sam and I rather enjoy movies, we probably watch too many of them but whatever. So Sam gets this video camera and starts making his own indy flicks. I think this is ingenious and we start throwing ideas back and forth and I start getting inspired to write a screenplay (quick side note, this all took place about a year ago). Now we eventually get to the point where we have an idea for a movie, so we wing it and throw this thing together and we end up with the highly polished, but ever so terrible Bad Moon Rising. Now what I mean by that is this, we had an amazing sound track, the music fit perfectly with every scene and everything flowed beautifully. Unfortunately, Sam and my passion for the film died out after a couple days of shooting, creating this kind of anti-good movie jive. So what we ended up with was a movie where the actors seemed jaded and bored with the whole thing, kind of like a couple of porn stars....I digress. To get back on topic, the reason why I've started writing the screenplay is because Sam and I are always talking about writing new scripts and maybe redoing above said movie, but we never actually get around to it. So I was lying in bed the other night, it was around five in the morning, I couldn't sleep. All of a sudden this image flashes into my head, I see this man sitting in the middle of a room and his back is to me. He's slowly rocking back and forth. Now I'm thinking to myself "How did this guy get here, what’s behind this?" so me with my overactive imagination begin thinking of all these possible scenarios, none of which I might add are all that happy or positive. So I eventually end up thinking of a scenario that severely freaks me out; it struck me that this would make a pretty freaking cool movie. So about half an hour later, I have a seven page script saved on my hard drive. It's no where near complete, I still have to finish writing it and then I'll have to go through and revise a few things, but it should be interesting. I'll be posting some of it on here soon, so keep an eye out.

Thought This was Interesting...

2004-11-08T08:21:00.000-05:00

"If serving the Lord seems undesirable to you, then choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve.... As for me and my household, we will serve the Lord." -- Joshua 24:15

I read this this morning, thought it was worth a post...not that all scripture isn't, but you know what I mean.

Cult Classics Cause Catorax...

2004-11-07T06:47:00.000-05:00

Well folks it's six fifty in the am and I'm still ready to go. I just got finished watching the original House on Haunted Hill. Much better than the new one if I do say so myself. There's something to be said if a movie that was made in the nineteen sixties can still severely creep a person out. This is coming from the person that watched the Texas Chainsaw Massacre and it didn't faze him. Horror movies now days rely to heavily on gore and disturbing imagery to evoke a sense of fear. I believe that it's what is not seen that is truly creepy. Well kiddies, I'm off to bed...don't do anything I wouldn't do.

eVote...

2004-10-31T15:27:00.000-05:00

See that horse? It's dead. You can stop beating it. Electronic voting has happened, is happening, and will happen. The only way people will rise up and kill it is if (when) some massive fraud or error occurs that totally fucks the outcome of a major race.

Windy City...

2004-10-30T16:52:00.000-04:00

What the hell is up with this weather? I woke up this morning at eight, got dressed, and waited for Jason to drop by for the radio show, then I rememberd that Dan is getting married today, felt stupid. But seriously the weather was all nice this morning, the sun was out it wasn't to chilly, then all of sudden the wind starts wipping around and the rain is falling, what the heck? But it's all good, it's halloween! Get freaking excited! Anyways, I'm off to a party tonight, some girl from the 99 is throwing it with her roomate. Have a good weekend readers, and enjoy the best holiday in the world.

Holloween...

2004-10-27T21:37:00.000-04:00

I've been watching the onehundred scariest moments on Bravo. What I find interesting is that rather than just show clips from horror movies, they're showing scary clips in general. One movie I've always loved but never really viewed as having a scary moment is willy wonka and the chocalate factory. One of the greatest movies in my opinion, if not just because Gene Wilder is in it. But, back on topic, take yourself back to the movie and think of the boat ride...It goes from the playfull and childish chocolate factory, to this dark ominus tunnel with Gene singing in the backround

Round the world and home again
That's the sailor's wayFaster faster, faster faster
There's no earthly way of knowing
Which direction we are going
There's no knowing where we're rowing
Or which way the river's flowing
Is it raining, is it snowing
Is a hurricane a-blowing
Not a speck of light is showing
So the danger must be growing
Are the fires of Hell a-glowing
Is the grisly reaper mowing
Yes, the danger must be growing
For the rowers keep on rowing
And they're certainly not showing
Any signs that they are slowing

Whats so great about this scene is how they used color. This scene that is supposed to be scary and intense is filled with bright colors, but the imagery works to cancel out the "happy" effect of the color. The seemingly random images of bugs and other bizare things create an anti color effect. Agree or disagree, this scene is definately one of the best in cinamatic history. Watch the movie again and leave your comments.

Fright Fest...

2004-10-21T00:36:00.000-04:00

So I won't be on the radio showAGAIN this week. I'm going to something called fright fest instead. It's something that six flags theme parks put on every holloween, so I'll be going to that with Kristen and a few of her friends. Just look at it as I'm going on assignment for the show, and I'll report back next week. Wayne and I got a new neighbor this week, she's a dental hygenist thats house sitting for the lady that usually lives next to us. She definately has money from the looks of her car, and the fact that she's renting one of the larger condos in edgewater. I've been putting off applying to McDonalds in the hope that one of the retail stores I applied to would hire me, but alas no such luck. So I think my hand is being forced and I'll have to break down and apply there. It's not so much that I don't want to work in food service (Albiet not one of the best jobs in the world) It's just that I don't really like McDonalds, at all. I hate their food, I'm not real kean on the staff that they hire, which is another great reason not to work there. I mean seriously, theres a reason why these people make minimum wage, you look at a keyboard and press on burger and fry pictures all day, real labor intensive...try not to break a nail. Eh, I give up.

New Header...

2004-10-19T04:08:00.000-04:00

Umm, I got the new header up. It's not complete I missplaced the file that I was origanally going to use, but oh well. This one looks spiffy enough for now. Night.

Consumer Whores...

2004-10-15T20:57:00.000-04:00

So I'm in Starbucks right now, yeah yeah I know "But Jordan, you said that they were consumer whores" granted I did, but their actually not that bad. The coffee is good and the atmosphear is great, and I'm rather enjoying myself. So in shameless promotion of one of the companys that I have long protested I'm saying that you, yes you the blog reader should go to starbucks at least once. Somtime between seven and one in the morning, thats the best time. Right now theres a family here eating, their daughter is the cutest thing in the whole world she just came up to me and asked "whaz ur nam?", she's so adorable. It's times like this that I wouldn't mind having a kid...yeah two bombs in one post, write this down folks cuz it won't happen again. I'm really digging nyack, I like the little shops that are all over the place, it feels much like DC in the fact that you don't need a car and can walk where ever you need to go, but differnt in that nyack is much more...dark? could be the time of night, I'm night sure but it feels more edgy, dark, much to my liking. I enjoy the fact that I can walk these streets and no one really gives notice, I'm just another padestrian and their walking by, unlike most places where it's the "Oh my god, he's wearing makup and is dressed all in black!!!". Yes, I know, I have no right to complain about people gawking considering the fact that I choose to wear these things, so I essentially bring it upon myself, but it's nice for once that people acknowledge me as a person, like the little girls mum, rather than a freak show at the carnival. So Wayne and I wait, in the calm ralaxing atmosphear of starbucks, we wait and we talk about nothing in general; just enjoying the time. Lars gets out of work at one, so we'll be able to hang with him, he works here by the way. Well, goodnight my fair blog reader untill the new week, farewell.

New York, New York...or Nyack...

2004-10-15T12:07:00.000-04:00

I'm off to nyack to some friends. So this is probably my last update for the weekend. Aight well, I'll catch you all later.

Word...

2004-10-14T18:51:00.000-04:00

As of late I haven't really been paying much attention to my spiritual life at all. Just kinda let it slip, doubted if my beliefs were even viable. Tried to figure it out on my own, when I had great friends all around me that could have helped and I shot myself in the foot. Thank you to my good friend Brian for your most recent post in your blog, I find it funny that the most simple thing I read or hear can completely change my outlook. Kristen, I love you with everything that I am, sorry that I've been out of it for so long. But to quote my good friend,

I’ve learned through many trials in my life that it takes faith to make it. Faith sounds like an easy thing but, in practice even the disciples slipped a few times: “He got up and rebuked the wind and the raging waters; the storm subsided, and all was calm.”Where is your faith?" he asked his disciples. In fear and amazement they asked one another, "Who is this? He commands even the winds and the water, and they obey him." Luke 8:25 (NIV)

The Origanal Superman...

2004-10-14T08:44:00.000-04:00

With the famous tv show Smallville chugging along in whats now it's fourth season, I thought it was important to mention the origanal superman, Christopher Reeves. He brought superman to life in the four movies from the eighties, and while he never had a chance to reprise his role because of a tragic horse riding acident that paralyzed him from the neck down, he did many guest appearances and interviews that were superman related. Christopher Reeves will go down in history as the origanal superman, the man that brought the comics to life and started a phenomenon.

R.I.P
Christopher "Man of Steel" Reeves 1952-2004

American Idiot...

2004-10-14T08:26:00.000-04:00

So who watched the Presidential debate last night? It was actually quite entertaining, watching Bush make petty ridiculous combacks and Kerry completely avioding questions. Kerry actually took a stand on some issues which I thought was cemmendable. Oh, and for Bush being the "christian" Kerry said more about faith and actually quoted scripture, whats up with that Bush? On abortion Kerry actually made some good points of faith issues and how different belief systems view abortion, while Bush stuck with his "It's wrong..." attitude. But alas I am still not very impressed with either candidate, as my good roomate said,

Kerry looks like a zombie and Bush looks like a cartoon, I can't take either of them seriously

Streaming Audio=YOU SON OF A...

2004-10-14T01:06:00.000-04:00

So making my own intro to my blog is turning out to be a bitch. I have the complete intro done, completely finished. But alas, the mp3 does not want coperate. So there is no streaming audio, but the animation is up and running and looks pretty freaking sweet if you ask me. In other news, I'm off to nyack this weekend to see some of my friends that go to college down there. I'll be missing dinner at Brians house with Jason, Sarah, Dan and Daniel (sp?), which sucks, cuz their all friends of mine that I enjoy hanging out with, but I've had the plans for nyack made for quite some time now. Actually I don't really know Dan and his fiance that well but their really cool, and their fun to chill with so...But anyways, I should prolly get some sleep, cuz I'm buzzing pretty heavily and I have a sensational case of heartburn.

Capcom VS. Your Thumbs...

2004-10-10T17:10:00.001-04:00

Had a blast last night playing svcchaos and guilty gear x2 with my good friends Jason and Evan. We started out the night with guilty gear which I was sucking pretty hard core in, it's not like conventional fighting games in that the combos and supers are much more difficult to pull off. By the end of the night though I was rocking the casba with a charactor named Eddie, and although rather proficiant with him I still got my ass kicked by Even, who I might add can use any charactor in the game and spank you. Jason started kicking tailend with a charactor named Kye, who I very much dislike because he's a son of a bitch when you have to distance fight him. But needless to say my thumbs hurt like a mofo this morning, feels like someone hit them with a hammer repeatedly, it tickles...

Word to Your Mother...

2004-10-08T15:37:00.000-04:00

Well, I've decided to actually do stuff wtih my blog rather than let it sit here and rot. I'm hopefully going to have it up on my own ftp server, that way I can have complete controll over the backround images and what not. But enough about that, your all probably dying to know how my week has been. First off, I missed the radio meetings , again. I have a horrible streak going of missing every single one since the beginning of the semester. Speaking of the music and radio, Nine Inch Nails is re-releasing The Downward Spiral in two different special edition forms, one dvd and one sacd. Unfortunately, the re-release of the Closure vhs in a two disc dvd volume is hung up on legal issues, so were not going to see that untill early twothousandfive. But, there is still reason to be merry and rejoice for Resident evil: Apocalypse did not suck. It was quite good actually, I really enjoyed it. There were a few times during the movie where I thought that the cheese factor was going to get way to high, but then they brought it back down with zombie chase scense and the like. The ending was definately not hollywood, which a was very pleased with, and they left it open for the third movie. Oh, and Nemasis didn't look incredibly lame as I thought he was going to, they actually did a really good job with making him look like a zombie yet keeping the intimadating big bad guy feel. Well, I'm off into the big blue yonder, you guys check back in from time to time, and feel free to post a comment. i just ask one thing, if you post anonamously just leave your name so I know who posted.

The Wabulous World of...YOUR MOM!

2004-10-08T14:56:00.000-04:00

Life has been ever so entertaining lately. I started work on a game for the dreamcast, it's a 2d side scroller much like streets of rage. It's going to have an x-men theme, so that entails finding every x-men side scroller ever made and ripping the sprites from them, which in fact is a pain in the ass. I sat down and listened to some music today, something I haven't had the chance to do in a while. I also remembered that I had some music videos on the comp, so that made the experiance all the more enjoyable. On a random note, don't drink entire glass fulls of bacardi 151, it'll definately mess you up. Me being the amazing thinker that I am, decided to drink an entire glass of that stuff strieght. As you all know my theory on drinking is "Posh, who needs mixed drinks!", I regret to say that if you plan on drinking more that a shots worth, you should probably mix it with something, because when you can't find the stairs in your appartment...cough. But despite messing my head up, I'm working out now, trying to get jacked. That way I'll be tall, muscular and wearing all black, so I can scare the piss out of some annoying little redneck kid. Seriously though, I'm really sick of having a gut, it vexes me...allot. So hopefully if I'm dutiful it'll pay off and I'll be jacked...eventually...I hope.

Ever So Sorry...

2004-10-02T03:39:00.000-04:00

I have not posted in quite a while, so sorry to all of you who genuinely look forward to that. The past couple of weeks have been rather interesting. It wasn't so much my actions as it was my in-action that made it so. It's all a slight daze now, I remember waking up a few weeks ago and feeling miserable. Not miserable with my life in general, just with the direction that I had chosen for it. I decided rather stupidly to shrug off my friends and be an anti-social hermit. Thus some of them didn't have a clue where I was, or if they did I wasn't all that cordial to them. My most sincier appologies to all of you. But all is as it should be now, I'm back. Looking back it wasn't all bad, it was a time of growing if you will, a time of flashing various movments of the hand at the decidedly horrid phenomanon known as life. As a friend of mine once said,

When life throws you lemons, you take those lemons and make lemonade out of them. Then you chase life down, tackle it to the ground and pour the lemonade in it's eyes while screaming "How do you like that? You lemon throwing bitch!"

September...

2004-09-19T03:03:00.000-04:00

11 days left.

September...

2004-09-17T14:58:00.000-04:00

13 days left.

StarSuckers, Inc...

2004-09-16T18:40:00.000-04:00

Or thats what MTV said when this video came out StarFuckers, inc.

Heresy...

2004-09-14T09:26:00.000-04:00

he sewed his eyes shut because he is afraid to see
he tries to tell me what i put inside of me
he got the answers to ease my curiosity
he dreamed a god up and called it christianity

he flexed his muscles to keep his flock of sheep in line
he made a virus that would kill off all the swine
his perfect kingdom of killing, suffering and pain
demands devotion atrocities done in his name

File Transfer Protocall...

2004-09-13T21:57:00.000-04:00

Awesome! I just got my blog posted on my FTP server. So now I don't have to worry about anything blogger has to say. I can put just about anything I want on my blog now, so I have full creative controll. I'm planning on a complete overhaul of the blog, adding a complete banner and sidebars with links and some java script. Anyways, check it out.

Testing Post...

2004-09-13T21:50:00.000-04:00

tryig out a new FTP server thing.

Joyce Carol Oats...

2004-09-10T12:22:00.000-04:00

We just read a story in english class called Where Are You Going, and Where Have you Been. It's a great example of gothic literature (wow, that sounded incredibly lame "Hey Jordan, did you just pull that out of the text book?"). Anyways, you should all go out and read it, it's really a good story, slightly messed up, but still good. Oh, and while your reading it, think of the main villian as a demon, you know like hellspawn, it makes the story really interesting and it's actually how the author wanted people to interpret.

I Hate Stupid People...

2004-09-10T00:35:00.000-04:00

Math, the one class\subject that annoys the living hell out of me. No, not because it's hard, no, not because I think it's usless. I hate math because it makes me feel stupid. Stupidity, in my opinion is the worst act someone can commit. There really is no excuse for not being educated on farily common topics i.e the presidential ellection

"I'm voting for Bush because he's a christian"

Damn you math for making me feel stupid, damn you to hell.

Building...

2004-09-09T12:04:00.000-04:00

Building, intensifying
Speratic movement
Lights, blinding
Sights unseen
Pounding heart
Muscle tension
Pain, blood, sweat
Sound of millions
Clamering for more

Inside...

2004-09-07T01:00:00.000-04:00

Currently working on a new song, the title of which happens to be Inside. Slieghted to be more emotional and personal than Self Possesed, but without the atmosphearic feel. Oh, one last thing, fuck the american dream and fuck college.

Back Into the Groove...

2004-09-05T02:58:00.000-04:00

The first week of classes is over, the long weekend has begun. Radio has started again (For those of you not in the know, I DJ with a friend at the college), The Mighty Glory had it's second show today, the first of which I have participated in. I found out today that the station is now broadcast over the internet, so for all you wonderful people out there, go to The Quake and click on the streaming broadcast button. The show plays from ten to twelve on saterdays. Oh, and also if you want to see the musical genious of my...shall we say inspiration, then go here and click on either Gone, Still or Something I Can Never Have.

There are 10 types of people in the world...

2004-08-31T12:00:00.000-04:00

Those who know binary and those who don't. Yeah, just got done with my two computer classes. The first of these CSC 121, is pretty much just an introductory course for programming; going over binary and machine language. The second class though, is the winner. This class is supposed to be a programming class, you know, languages like java, C++ or pascal, usfull stuff...No, wait, were doing visual basic. For those of you who don't know, visual basic is usfull for one thing and one thing only, writing microsoft programs. So if you want to do other things, such as make your own apps and what not, although you can do it with visual basic, it's pretty much strictly microsoft. Well, I'm off to public speaking so I can learn how to talk to people...

It's Your Birthday...

2004-08-22T18:35:00.000-04:00

Kristen's house, Kristen's whole family, Kristen's Grandma...someone...please...help me...

On the Road Again...

2004-08-19T14:23:00.000-04:00

I'm off to Kristen's house, yet another road trip. I never thought that I would be sick of taveling, but what do you know?! I think that might be why I don't have my licsense, I absolutely loath motor vehicles. I hate cars, I think the only redeaming quality they have is thier body...maybe. Well, lets face it, it's all about the cars body. In all seriousness, you don't want to be driving a car that looks like your grandmother gave it to you as a hand-me-down, do you? Thats another thing, why the hell do old people drive cool cars? Don't tell me "Well they have worked hard for what they have, they've earned it". Thats bullshit, the only thing they've earned is the right for driver recertification. Honestly, you shouldn't be driving a ::Insert car of choice here:: if you can't even controll the damn thing. When your driving twentyfive in a fifty zone, thats a sure sign that you shouldn't have a licsense. Leave a comment if you believe in driver recertification, we'll take this thing all the way to the top, all the way to the department of motor vihicles!!!! MWA HAHAHAHA!!...cough...cough...hang on let me catch my breath...

It is Finished...

2004-08-19T03:19:00.000-04:00

it's three in the blasted morning, I want to go to bed. I figured that I would let all you good people out there know that my web-site has finally been updated, with two more pictures and a complete overhaul of the sites look. I'm going to bed...::Insert cliche comment of departure here::.

The Fragile...

2004-08-17T19:54:00.000-04:00

I've been incredibly sick for the past couple of days, not fun at all if you ask me. It wouldn't be so bad, but when I feel sick I'm completely unproductive. I've been reading allot, Dracula and a java book. The web site hasn't seen any updates in forever, no it's not dead, I just don't have the time. Theres this thing called "real life" whatever that is, but for some odd reason it just keeps getting in the way. Damn you life ::shakes fist at unseen entity::. Self Possesed is finished. I completed it today, I'm happy with the end result. I ended up throwing in some effects that I origanlly had not planned on using, just because I thought that they would bring the song down, but they help to fill out the ending measuers nicely. College starts soon...Yeah, thats about all I have to say about that. For all you people that want to stay in college for the rest of your life, hey thats great and more power to you. It's just that I've been jaded, I've seen what greatness is and it's not this medeocrity called college life. I want to follow my dreams, but college holds me back from that. Ahh well, such is life, in the words of a great man

We come in to the world in diapers, and we go out in depends

Have a wonderful week miene freunde, and remember, don't do anything I wouldn't do.